ARRRRRGH T.T

the last time i snapped was in the end of my sister's birthday party - when a toddler almost got injured by a heavy stone furniture...

brought my sister to her primary school's family day event. i wasn't so up for it but didn't wanna disappoint her... Family day = cheerfulness. i try to put that on.
i tried...

noises that went way over healthy decibels (MC screaming over the microphone, trying to outbeat the Lion Dance troop and children songs played at a SCARY volume... - I AM AMAZED I AM STILL HEARING THINGS NOW!), people with their eyes on stalls instead of watching where they're walking, over-overcrowdedness...
@.@

my sister gave up her queue for a dart game, said she wanna go home, suddenly disappeared into the midst and reappeared.
I was astonished, "Where's the remaining RM 8 coupon?"
She shrugged: "I gave it to my friend."
I glared at her.
That just ticked me off.
" What - you think this is charity??"
I could have used up that RM 8 for cabbage or something for tomorrow's dinner!! Anything - RM8!!!!! I wanted to cry - she could have asked me before doing that!!! OMG - she don't understand the VALUE of RM8, she don't know...I keep telling myself that she is innocent......T.T
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Money keeps slipping off my fingers...

[Meditating hard now... *chill chill~]
It's just RM8....come on, it's just RM8....right?


[...both events are collectively a test of patience and endurance of psychological buoyance in a pandemoniac state - 'sigh'
about the near accident? thanks to the negligence of the child's caretaker (whilst the parent watching TV in another room) I mean- I don't have a dozen pairs of eyes & hands! its not like i can watch so many kids & clean up their mess simultaneously! Can they be helpful enough to at least keep an eye of their baby please!? 'haiz (breathe~~~~~!)]