2008's November

I couldn't move...

I woke, but couldn't shift, from underneath the messy, yet perfectly piled comforts of my pillows.

I don't want to move...

I woke, but still childishly clutch onto the vague fantasies and fleeting dreams.
I woke, but want to lie in that gentle pool of sun, and ignore the growing morning bustle and rush around me. (pretending to be dead asleep...I don't wana leave!! T.T)

I woke, and savoured the moment before I wake...

I wonder what I could have been, if I get that impossible chance to rewind 11 years and start all over again.

emoticons

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kay~that describes me this week
bye XD

normal

had been chaffeuring my siblings around... (i really salute them la, i CAN'T STAND tuitions honestly- u guys know la, how i used to go one class then skip the rest)
sort of happy to do so 'coz i never really talked to them since sem2 started - it'll be exchange of animal grunts between me+my bro.(cabal & dota-ing & smiling at the computer screen 24hrs);
or just screams from my sis ["OFF THE LIGHTS LARR!!!"] & me-her ["SHUDDUP I M TRYIN' 2 CONCENTRATE!!!"]...okay maybe that means i exchanged more syllables, or 10-year-old sentences & snorts with my sis , but still......
oh- he yaks sitting at the passenger seat... talk. about. almost. everything. & duno y... but i am just really happy listening to my brother speak.
so- yesterday, i picked her up from ss17 to ss3, i asked (in mandarin):
" Are you late?"
my sis, (snootily):" yea I m, but i can tell teacher that I've got English tuition."
"You know the way rite?"
"ya, of 'coz i know la..go everyday."
"ok, u show me the way ar~." (grinning)
she point left right etc. till we came to a junction where we should turn into, but she kept insisting:"Go straight! go straight!"
"U sure? u remember going straight pass that kentucky over there!?" (grinning lyk hyena already)
she hesitated, then stubbornly:" i remember! Go straight!"

okay, straight, straight...pass all the houses, pass all the traffic lights, all the way to taman paramount LRT station (end road).
"your tuition nearby?" i almost gona laugh man.
then she gasp:" Ei!? I thought..I thought...!" & give me that big sheepish grin, "eh-heheh..."
I scolded her & laugh laugh laughed laa..
I knew this would happen, 'coz she was so like me: blur-case when got other ppl teman.
I am mean to play along like that, but at least I got her to tuition still grinning(sheepishly).

XD because of...

Reading. Built Forms & Philosophies.

Singapore ArchiFest'08: Man & Environment

Egypt

...& that debate.

Piquant discoveries. Crazy decisions

(or actions without thinking).

Random ideas.

Shopfront design & Sick friends (hahaa)

That Solid Construction:

...and Nights in the Carpentry Workshop

Opportunities.

A Guys' Toilet in a Mountain.

Rimbun Dahan.

Blunt Cooking.

Managing to Wake up.

("don't be so stressed up," friends tell me.
i don't want to be,
i never want to. i can't say i am forced to either. what is it?)

i deleted the whole verse i just typed

and cried.

i m so sorry - for this melancholic entree; to type in such dreadful tone; to kill joy.

nevertheless...enjoy your holidays!! XDxD

a bad habit called "blogging-while-studying"

"studying" sux..
when it is reduced to flat memorizing.

!! ..gota spur things up or else i'll b zzzzzzzzzzzzzz-ing again


monday, 7pm: had been rainin' heavily these afternoons (& my windscreen wiper is useless)
p/s: i love u all so pls drive safely.

Sunday, 5pm: a HORRIBLE news-
our classmate, Hujai (Ujai) got involved in a car accident yesterday. His car whammed into a 'tiang' and 'terbalik' into a 'longkang' - head fractured, blood clot. COMMA.
Admitted into General Hospital.

omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg
OMG
i can't blif that actually happened.
dumbfounded - just all the [......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]-s inside me..
scared.

UJAI YOU CAN DO IT!! Get well soon!

praying hard & crossing our hearts,

2008 AT March-intakes

P/S: EVERYONE PLEASE PLS PLS (x10000000000)

DRIVE SAFELY!!! (>.<)

Sunday, 4.53pm: downloaded notes...ok, urm..erm.. this that.....(FOCUS LA wei!!)
STARTING IS A BIT HARD.

D-R-E-A-M

all of the sudden, the spelling and its definition(s) seem so remote.

"I have a dream..."
(I came across an article about Tun Dr. Mahathir's conviction that in our country, "race-based politics would stay..", and how Obama appeals across all sorts of frontiers and delineation, although there is no connection, i suddenly inclined to listen again to that historical speech...)
...Let us not wallow in the valley of despair, I say to you today, my friends.
And so even though we face the difficulties of today and tomorrow, I still have a dream. It is a dream deeply rooted in the American dream.
I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal."
I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia, the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slave owners will be able to sit down together at the table of brotherhood.
I have a dream that one day even the state of Mississippi, a state sweltering with the heat of injustice, sweltering with the heat of oppression, will be transformed into an oasis of freedom and justice.
I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character. ..

I have a dream today!
...And if America is to be a great nation, this must become true.
- Martin Luther King, "I have a Dream", delivered 28 August 1963, at the Lincoln Memorial, Washington D.C

It was an inspiration.
But from where & when I am - a faraway one.The generation-Y-ers around my circle appears to had given up(!) on our "tanah air"...
It doesn't look like we (again, the majority within small crowd I know) dream for the country,
we dream individualistically - our success, our safety, our life...(life, liberty and the pursuit for happiness)
dreams for ourselves on our own...
(ok. I Really don't wana go into this right now =Zip!)

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels - Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels - When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream;
I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality...
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile

I'll cross the stream - I have a dream
- Westlife, "I have a Dream", 1999 (originally by ABBA, 1979)

deja-vu?

Mine is simple:" I have a dream...that I realize all my dreams."

Which had been bugging me for a while (..though I was too preoccupied to meander in this these days) - from where I am standing now, some seem out-of-the-way, whilst some seem so close but still untouchable, and collectively it seem hazed...
"So much to do, so little time." - Familiar?
yesterday, it seems there are so much I pine for to the point that
I don't know what it is anymore...
but I realized today -
all of the sudden - that I should take it one step at a time.

5.05am

Fll aslp 4 d'no how long..

that essay is so fake

The Finishing Line

141108: Submission of Design Theory Research Essay
" Critical Regionalism: Architecture, Nature and Man"
[I reduced the title of my essay to the three basic nouns out of frustration, and also, as I come to think of it, the ache of simplicity out of all the jargon, vice and complexity we had been juggling with, like dazed clowns... This is an assignment that bears a hefty percentage of this semester's CGPA, and believe it or not, I am way behind all my peers. As much as I am oratorically passionated about these theories and philosophies earlier on in class...as much as I (critically, and then...naively) LOVED everything I had learned, I find it difficult to compose the details into a formally structured research essay. I had been freely soaking up theorists' ideas, but coming to the point of infiltrating and translating, in an organized way - I feel, suddenly, desperate. But I'll survive - Nothing can make me feel inferior without my consent]
181108: Final Exam
9.30am Building Construction 1
[Had not started studying (of course), but will try to over the weekends. I do not know how hard the 50% paper would be...who cares, I'll just let it test me XD]
2.30am Technical English 2
[Really don't know what to expect - just wish I'll have that vocabulary drive - which rarely ever happen (=.=) - in me that day...hahaa]

Then, it will be...OMG OMG OMG!!! (-.-" gosh I gotta stop dreaming & get back to work now!!)
OMG O.O -suddenly high.
Kay~speak soon!! XD

introversion

Words Held Back.
-seem like a song title...
yea, maybe I should get myself a diary
...and spill all the unexpressed lyrics.

(oldies at the background- "the Winner Takes It All" by ABBA & 'Hero' by Mariah Carey -& am a li' sleepy...)
Ok gona snooz now. Hasta la Vista! XD

11pm

11hours count down till i head to col. Submission is 11am 111108, and i m stuck in this till then.

101108

I DARN LOVE WORKING WITH U GUYS!!!!!

- U GUYS R INDISPENSABLE!

XDxDxDXP, your Sang (i M NOT) Bro.

Everybody seems to be awfully busy these days.

I. SCREWED. UP. MY. TECHNICAL. ENGLISH. 2. ORAL.TASK. 3.
BAAAAAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a li' pensive...

my pulse was at a dull pace yesterday, yesterday's yesterday, and yesterday's yesterday's recent days...
i was just a li' too random lately - i was just a li' interested in too many subjects at once (my head is a li' messed up now), but why why now when i have to give a li' more focus on my assignments?
so much arbitrary stuff and nothings pelting into my head i found that i wasn't breathing.
("inhale..")
OK. Back to work.